Category: Depression

Keeping A Positive Mind When Things Are Turned Upside Down

It’s becoming increasingly hard lately to keep a positive mind due to personal issues that seem to keep showing up one after another. I’ve got to be honest, I’m so fed up of dealing with one problem to then be presented with another. So today I’m going to be talking about how to keep a positive mind even when things are turned upside down because I certainly need it at the moment!

Positive Thoughts

At the moment this seems near on impossible, but the only way to keep yourself upbeat is to take the time to think about the positivity in your life. Even if it’s something as simple as being happy with the way your hair looks that day, making sure that you’re reminding yourself that it’s not all bad will help you from driving yourself insane in your mind.

Get Outside

One of the worst things that you can do when you’re feeling low is to coop yourself up inside the house all day. While it’s totally normal to not want to talk to anyone when you’re feeling down in the dumps, you could take yourself off somewhere quiet for a long walk. If music helps, stick your headphones on and walk your troubles away. I personally find walking to music extremely therapeutic. A song that’s really helping me at the moment is “Live Outside” by Enter Shikari. Definitely worth a listen if you’re stuck for new things on your playlist.

Also, exercise releases endorphins into your brain, which in turn makes you happier. Being fitter within yourself will give you a self-confidence boost, and make you feel healthier which yep, you guessed it – makes you happier. Seriously, get outside whenever you can!

Eat Right

We should all be doing this anyway, but it’s all too easy to slip into a routine of eating junk food and neglecting the nutritious food that our bodies desire. Teach yourself to say no to that packet of crisps, and instead have a glass of water before deciding if you’re actually hungry. The food we put into our bodies affects the way our brains work; therefore eating good food will brighten up the mind.

Take some time to work out a new eating habit that you and your loved ones can take on so that you can all begin to reap the benefits and become healthier.

Take Some Me Time

This is possibly one of the most important things you can do, especially when everything is getting on top of you. As a parent, I know that some days it’s almost impossible to get any time alone, even in the bathroom! However, taking even ten minutes a day to do something that you love will help you touch ground with reality and begin to think clearer.

Remember, if you are feeling particularly hopeless and are struggling to lift your mood to see your GP right away. There are many different options for you to explore, and you should never struggle alone. #MentalHealthAwareness #NeverAlone

Project Improve Myself: Week One

I’m on a major self-help mission at the moment. As you may have read in my last post, I’ve not been feeling too good about myself lately and I need to make a change in my day to day life. I’ve decided to not only improve my health but to improve all other aspects of my life too so that I can feel happier on the whole. I thought I’d document the change(s) that I’m going to be making so that if anyone else wants to join in and improve themselves, then they can.

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Sunday

Sunday is the day that I get Dinky back from his Dad’s, and it’s the best day of the week for me because we get to spend the whole day relaxing and being ourselves. The change that I’m going to implement today is that I’m going to blitz our home and make it super clean for the new week that begins tomorrow. This way we can get up on Mondays to a freshly cleaned home, and it will make the transition from Sunday into Monday that little bit easier on us all.

The next thing that I need to do today is to go and do the weekly shop. We’re all making a conscious effort to buy healthier foods now, so I’m going to step it up a notch and buy completely healthy food so that we’ve all got no choice but to eat healthier. This week I’ve not been feeling too well. I’ve had a headache behind my eyes for the majority of the week, and I’m certain that it’s stress. However, crappy food and drink wouldn’t have helped the situation either. I’m tired of feeling sluggish and want to make the change now.

Monday-Thursday

Back to the routine of work and school runs from Monday, and I’m going to make the effort to stop being so lazy and actually walk the school run to get Dinky from school. We live close to the top of a hilly town, and Dinky’s school is at the bottom. I can’t think of a better way to get our heart rates up than marching up and down the hill each day.

Since I’ve become self-employed, I’ve been constantly looking at ways to improve my standard of work, and I’m always looking at new opportunities for me to take on. This week I’ve got a few things lined up that I’ve never done before, so I’m feeling optimistic at the idea of a change in my workload too.

Dinky goes to his Dad’s every Thursday afternoon, so the school run won’t be applicable on Friday but I do tend to pile a lot of work onto myself on a Friday when I’ve got the chance to work without any distractions.

 

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Eating

As I mentioned earlier, I’ve got a large food shop to do today and I’m going to make it so that we’re only eating healthy food. I’m going to start planning our meals for the week and precooking as much as I can to make it easier to stick to a healthier lifestyle.

On the menu tonight is going to be a grilled chicken and couscous medley, with a light garlic dressing and salad. It’s super easy to throw together, and it’s really low in calories and fat. It’s also one of those meals that you can precook, and warm through when you’re ready to eat. Perfect for Mr Pie’s random work schedules.

Admittedly I’ve not planned meals for the rest of the week yet, but once I’ve got the food in I’m going to sit down and write a meal plan out, pin it to the fridge and stick to it.

I’d love to get some tips and tricks on how I can continue making changes for the better in our lifestyle. Has anyone else ever had enough and started making changes? What did you do to successfully change your lives? Get in touch below!

 

Much love xx

Improving My Health For A Better Life

Lately I have been struggling with my health, and for once it’s not my mental health. It seems like one thing after another lately. As soon as my mental health started to improve, my physical health seemed to decline and that’s why it’s time for me to make a change once and for all. I’m fed up of always having something to complain about, and I’m also fed up of looking in the mirror and hating what I see. My overall health needs to improve, and soon. I have become lazy with a lot of things, including simple tasks like going to the shops, keeping our home tidy and wanting to walk to and from the school to keep fit. I know that’s not who I usually am so I need to get myself into gear and find some new habits to form.

What’s the plan?

Food

First and foremost, my plan is to find a way of changing my eating habits without feeling like I’m on some sort of diet. The one thing that seems to throw me off is the feeling that I can’t have a certain food because I tend to rebel against myself and eat it anyway.

I think the key here is to not make anything off limits, but to try and have only small amounts of the ‘naughty’ food, just enough to satisfy any cravings. For example, if I fancy some chips with my dinner, rather than not allowing myself to have any, I’ll substitute a large amount of what I’d normally have for a salad or vegetables. Doing that alone should improve my eating habits dramatically; therefore improving my health. This way I have a chance of losing weight without banning all of my favourite foods.

Exercise

Admittedly, the school run is much easier when Mr Pie can take me and Dinky there because he then takes me home to work and heads off to work himself, so walking the route to school each day seems a little redundant. On his days off however, I plan on leaving him to relax in bed and taking Dinky to school myself to make sure that we are both getting a few days a week of exercise.

When I haven’t got Dinky, I’m going to start taking myself off on walks in my free time not just for my body, but for my mind too. I spend countless amounts of hours each day in front of a computer, so taking myself away for a short time each day will help me clear my head. Plus, where we live is so beautiful too so I could also get some pictures for my Insta!

Home

Lately, home life has been pretty crap, simply because of the amount of work that Myself and Mr Pie have taken on lately. Our plan is to move and buy our own home soon, so working to generate the money has been essential in our minds. We do however, enjoy drink in the evenings which means that things like housework are sometimes neglected. I am going to make time each day to keep up and maintain our home so that when we do come to relax, we don’t have to feel bad about neglecting our home.

Stress

Even though in the last year I’ve come on leaps and bounds with my mental health, I still find myself stressing massively over small things which turns into me feeling awful about myself, or snapping at my loved ones.

I’ve been reading about meditation and I’m going to give it a go so that each evening, I can simply listen to some relaxing music and let my stresses go.

Even though I’ve said this on my blog a thousand times, I’m going to give this new me a good go. I can’t continue hating myself forever because it’s going to end up driving people away that care about me and it’s also not going to help my anxieties in the long run.

Has anyone else felt like this before? How did you get through it? I’d love to know.

Much love xx

 

 

 

 

Boost Your Mood And Your Mind

Stress, anxiety, and depression are some of the demons that many of us will face at some point in our life. When you become a parent, it can feel like you are doing the wrong thing by trying to look after yourself, which is, however, entirely false. Looking after your mind and your body is something that everybody should prioritize. However, taking the time out of busy schedules to look after yourself can be guilt inducing and make you feel like you are slacking in other areas of your life. We all have the right to happiness in our lives, and the best way of looking after other people starts by looking after yourself first.Check out the following ways you can boost your mood and see if you connect with any of them.

 

Practice a form of meditation

 

Gone are the days when only guru’s or hippies would practice meditation, and it is now a well-respected and established way to relax, unwind and clear your mind of negative or destructive thoughts. Many people claim that meditation can affect your overall well-being and not just calm and empty your mind. Yoga is one such form of meditation, allowing you to connect your mind to your body and eliminate any interfering thoughts that can cause stress or anxiety. There are many different types of yoga, including Bikram, Kundalini, and Hatha yoga.  Find one that you enjoy, and you feel a connection with. It might be, however, that you simply don’t connect with yoga at all, and that’s okay. There are other practices that don’t entail getting out a mat and putting yourself into a series of complicated looking positions. Mindfulness is one such practice, that benefits the mind and the body all in one. Fans of this movement claim that mindfulness is about being present, enjoying the moment you are in, and focusing on what you are doing without allowing outside influences or future fears to rule your present. This can be a meditative practice as it allows you to focus on the act of being rather than worrying about things that are external to you and therefore beyond your control.

 

Plant based Diets

 

More people than ever are turning to plant-based or vegan diets as a way of boosting their health, as well as reducing the stimulants and  bad habits they may have such as cigarettes and alcohol. Living a more wholesome lifestyle might mean small steps such as exchanging cigarettes for premium e-liquids or only drinking wine on a certain day of the week. There is much evidence to suggest that plant based diets can increase your general health, from reducing the overall cholesterol in your body to providing you with mental clarity, something experienced by many proponents of a plant-based lifestyle. You don’t need to be vegan, however, to experience some of the benefits of a plant-based diet. Increasing the amount of fruit and vegetables you consume daily, and reducing the amount of meat and dairy you consume can really boost the way you feel about yourself. New lifestyle trends are popping up, such as Flexitarianism and Reductionism, all aimed at reducing the number of animal products in your diet as well as the negative impact of the animal industry upon the earth.

 

Focus On Yourself

 

If you are a parent or caregiver, it can be all too easy to lose yourself in caring for other people in your life. While looking after your family is important, it is also to look after yourself, and not lose sight of who you were before you had children. If you have a hobby, then make sure you continue with this and don’t give it up due to time restraints or being too tired to continue. Making time to ‘do you’ will often give you more energy, even if it means sacrificing time in another area of your life. When you do something you love, maybe playing a sport or painting, it can give you a few hours of time off being a parent and allow you to come back to your routine refreshed and with a more positive attitude.

 

Just because depression isn’t visible, doesn’t mean it’s not there.

Depression is something that the majority of us will suffer with at some point in our lives. Whether we realize it or not. It comes in different ways for all of us. Some of us just think we’re feeling a little low. Some of us feel like life isn’t worth living anymore.

My experience.

When I first went in about my mental health, the Doctor wasn’t sure whether I was confusing depression with anxiety. Now I look back on it, maybe at the time I was, but I’ve definitely had an element of depression.

I battled for a very long time with my mental health, and I was stubborn enough to not accept the help and let the Doctor prescribe me medication. I was scared I’d be on it for life and become addicted.

A colleague of mine at the time managed to convince me to try it because I’d got to the point where I was nervous about even answering the phone. I was pushing everyone that cares about me away by not talking about my feelings because I felt like it’d just be a burden on them. They did everything I did, worked hard, looked after the children etc. So why couldn’t I do that?

My plan of action.

I finally took the plunge and went to the Doctor asking for medication. I was already on propranolol for my anxiety but that didn’t touch my mood. When I finally gave in I just sat there and sobbed, rambling onto the Doctor about everything that’s built up for me. I felt stupid. So many people in the world are going through so much worse than I am.

I did, however, feel better for just letting it out. The Doctor prescribed me a low dose of sertraline, as what I was feeling clearly wasn’t just my anxiety.

I went back after 2 weeks for a review of my mood. To be honest, in that short space of time I didn’t really see an improvement, apart from the fact that it had helped my anxiety issues slightly!

Within a month of that, I felt like a totally new person. I was no longer crying every day or breaking down over the smallest of things. My patience had improved when it comes to Dinky and his challenging behaviors. Most importantly, I was actually able to smile again.

How do I get a diagnosis for depression?

It’s not something that the Doctor will just diagnose straight away, especially if you’ve not had any past history of mental health. The Doctor will likely prescribe you some antidepressants and ask you come back after a few weeks to check your mood. The Doctor may even refer you to see a mental health worker if you really don’t want to take medication for your depression.

I’m not saying medication is the way forward to cure depression because it isn’t the case for some people. I’m just saying it helped me and still is. I hope to come off of my medication soon.

If you feel like you may be suffering from depression, please go and see your Doctor. It doesn’t mean you’re weak. In fact, it means the opposite. You’ve got the strength to go and tell someone that actually, you’re really not doing okay and need some help. There is nothing wrong with that. Just because depression isn’t visible, it doesn’t mean it isn’t there.

Useful links

Here are some links to find out more about depression, take a mood test, and how you can get the best help for you.

Moodzone

NHS Choices

How To Cope With Anxiety

Please remember that you’re never alone in this. I believe that you can get through this.

To the poor woman I witnessed get hit by a car today..

Let me just start by saying I truly hope you’re okay. You’re being treated by an incredible team and I can’t wait to see your face again at the surgery.

Let me explain. I was sat outside work today having a cigarette and I was enjoying the sunshine and the fresh air when I happened to glance over at you on your familiar red moped. I saw you take off from the junction to cross the roundabout and I saw that car speed into you. I heard the crash and I heard your scream. I saw your moped skid across the floor. I instantly and dialled for help, I shouted at a colleague to get a Doctor and I rushed over to you.

People crowded around and the Doctor arrived and I let them do their assessments on you. I went and grabbed something to cover you with and to keep you warm. I called the Police to come and section off the road that you were lying in. Cars were building up and impatient drivers were angrily feeding through the space other passers-by had created to keep you safe. We moved your moped to a safe place and by then the Police had turned up and so had the ambulance. Someone called your Husband and gave him the awful news that you’d been in an accident. It felt like forever but it all happened so quickly at the same time. You were are incredible. You kept calm and answered the floods of questions and then I watched you be taken away in the ambulance. The Doctors were amazing, the pedestrians were too, not one person walked past without asking how you were and who you were so they could send their best.

I, of course know who you are, we work in the same building. I’m actually one of your patients for my anxiety. Little did I know that one day I’d have to see someone who has bought me great strength and got me past a really difficult time in my life, lying in the road after being hit by a car. A woman who I see daily documents from, and see how much you help people turn their lives around, help them overcome their fears and anxieties.

This is something I won’t ever forget, and tonight I’ve lit a candle to send all of my best wishes and thoughts your way.

Sending positive vibes your way,

A patient who thinks you’re an amazing person xx

Big news in the Miss Pork Pie Household!

I am super excited to be able to share with you all the news that I have taken the leap and decided to become a full-time blogger! It’s been something that I’ve wanted to do for ages, but never thought I’d achieve, at least not for a while anyway.

It all came about because I have been really struggling to find childcare for Dinky over the summer holidays. There are plenty of people that could and would help me but I just couldn’t expect them to have him 5 days a week for the whole 6 week period. I really struggled to pull it together last summer holidays, and even on just the half term holidays I sometimes only just scraped it together.

So I went into work and asked if I could reduce my hours so that I’d be able to work in the afternoons when Dinky could go to my parent’s for a few hours. It seemed like the perfect plan. Unfortunately, my employers couldn’t offer me the hours I was after, so understandably I was told to keep my hours or resign. It really hit me hard, to be honest, I felt stupid because I’d assumed that everything would work out okay. Now though I was faced with a decision to either beg for childcare from my friends and family or to leave my job that I’d worked hard at for two years.

Dinky always comes first, that’s a given but if I can’t provide for him and support and earn money alongside Mr. Pie’s wage then what use is it being at home? So that’s where I decided to jump in feet first and become a full-time blogger. I’ve been blogging as a hobby for three years now and more recently than not my views have started rocketing, and I’ve been offered work from various brands. I’ve had to turn a few away because of working full time but I know that once I’m at it full time I can take on so much more.

I have also recently started taking on some freelance writing jobs for various people/companies, which I plan on continuing once I have finished my current job.

I am really looking forward to beginning this journey into becoming self-employed. I am going to be doing vlogs on mental health, beauty, and parenting. I also have many other ideas in the pipeline, but for now, I’d love to hear any ideas that could help me get going or even share your stories on how you became a full-time blogger.

 

Much love xx

How To Cope With Anxiety

I’m just going to put it bluntly, anxiety is shit. I have dealt with it daily for over 10 years. Most of the time it isn’t bad enough to rule over my day, but those days/nights where my anxiety is so intense that I can barely catch my breath are awful. I had my first one of those creep up on me after months of nothing last night. I got through it in an unusual way, so I’ve decided to compile a list of quick fixes and long term treatments you can do if you’re struggling with your anxiety!
Quick Fixes

  • Distraction

I always find that the first trick I turn to when I feel anxious is to distract myself, whether that be on my phone, a game, putting the TV on or simply going for a walk. Sometimes that is literally all you will need. A distraction long enough to make you forget about what you were anxious about in the first place. Often I’m not even sure why I feel anxious or what thought triggered my feelings, so I find doing something different will change my train of thought.

  • Shout it out

Sometimes I find that I mistake frustration for anxiety, or even that my frustration and stresses create the anxiety. If this is something you feel happens to you then my suggestion is to just let it out.

– Go and find a quiet place and shout out your frustration. 

– Maybe nominate a friend that you can call and just rant to (offer the same back to them for if they ever need it, of course)

– Crying always helps. Don’t be ashamed or too proud to cry. Of course if you feel like crying or you do cry very often, then what you’re feeling may not just be anxiety, so please visit your doctor (see long term treatment for more information)

Basically any way to let out some emotion will help. This is a tip I have picked up very recently and it works very quickly for me. It releases pent up stress that’s boiling inside and you will feel better and fast.

  • Talk it out with someone you trust

I know it may feel hard to talk about how you’re feeling, and it’s difficult to even know where to begin but talking it out with someone I trust helps me feel like I’m not so alone. Even if the person I have told doesn’t have anxiety themself, at least they understand why I’m acting a little strange or why I’m more fidgety than normal. Also, you will be pleasantly surprised how understanding most people are.

So if you feel like you can talk to someone about it then do it, it will help!

  • Deep breathing

This trick is probably the oldest one in the book, but it’s a tried, tested and true way of alleviating anxiety symptoms. Simply sit up straight and breathe 8 seconds in through your nose and 5 seconds out through your mouth. Carry this on until you feel calm again.

  • Keep your feet on the ground.

I often find that when I’m feeling anxious my head spins and I almost feel like I’m not in my own body any more. Putting at least one foot on the ground helps your body regain balance and work out where you are. This technique is called “grounding” and is also used for people who are suffering with symptoms of vertigo.

  • Ride it out.

A few years ago a therapist told me something that I’ve always tried to remember when I’m feeling anxious. What goes up must come down. This means that your anxiety will only get so high and then it will slowly drop and go away. If you’re able to ride it out, then ride it out because I promise you, every time after that it will get easier.
Long term treatments

  • Change what you put in your body

    In every way possible, look after yourself! Eat as healthily as you can. Being overweight and eating the wrong food can often give you symptoms that mimic anxiety, which would in turn make you worse. Cut out alcohol (or cut down at least). Quit smoking, not just for your anxiety but for your general health too.

    • Exercise

    As I mentioned earlier, sometimes a walk can distract you from a panic attack. Not only that, exercise releases endorphins which make you feel happy. Also, of course exercising will keep you fit and healthy.

    • Talk to your GP

    For a very long time I’d avoid speaking to my GP about my anxiety because I was worried that they would just shove me onto medication and I didn’t want to take anything. After now working in a GP surgery and seeing and speaking to my colleagues about anxiety I have learnt that there are so many different ways of treating/dealing with it. You can:

    – Get your Doctor to refer you for CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy)

    – Your GP can also help advise and monitor your lifestyle, ask what help is available.

    – Your GP can also recommend self help websites.

    – Medication. I used to have this massive stigma in my mind about taking medication for my anxiety. I was convinced I didn’t need it and that they just cover up the problem rather than solving it and I didn’t want that. I do now fully support medication for anxiety because once I had heard and seen how it helps people, I knew I needed to try it. 

    It was hand on heart the best decision I have ever made regarding my health. The Doctor explained that it resets the chemical levels in your brain that cause you to feel the way you do. I’ve now been on medication for 6 months and I’m happier than I’ve been in years. My anxiety still creeps up on me, but nothing like it used to.

    There are many different types that the Doctor can prescribe you, so go and speak to your GP.

    Also, don’t forget to…

    I really hope that my tips can help someone. I know only too well how horrible it is crawling through the internet trying to find help. Do you have anything else that you do when you’re anxious? I’d love to know!

    Much love xxx

    #YoudNeverBelieve

    I am so excited and proud to announce that I have taken part in #YoudNeverBelieve.

    What is #YoudNeverBelieve I hear you say?
    Well, I do have some super informative links to share with you but I will tell you a little bit right now.

    #YoudNeverBelieve is a campaign to show teenagers that you are never truly alone. Feeling low and helpless is one of the worst things anyone can experience and I’m super proud to be backing this cause to encourage young girls to speak out if they are feeling anything but happy. In this video, myself and a bunch of awesome bloggers confessed some of the things we felt when we were teenagers, and possibly some of us may still feel this way.

    We want to create a support network for anyone struggling and the amazing Ella Stearn is the brainbox we all need to thank for this! Please please pleeeeease back this cause because #mentalhealth is SO important.
    #YoudNeverBelieve that I used to be scared to go to school.

    Watch the video here:


    Anyone who knows me will know I am really passionate about mental health. Having an autistic son and battling anxiety, depression and panic disorder myself really fuels me to help others. As soon as I read about this campaign I knew I had to get involved.

    Here is where the magic is happening, please donate to this amazing cause – #YoudNeverBelieve

    Oh, and one last thing. Remember, it’s okay to not be okay. There is always someone out there. Don’t suffer alone.

    Much love xxx
    Photo credit to the beautiful Amy Thompson xx

    The Only Person You Should Try To Be Better Than, Is The Person You Were Yesterday

    It’s been quite a few months since I last posted anything on here, and after talking to the lovely Nikki over at keepingstrongandmovingforward.co.uk, I decided to sit and write a post again!

    I’m now working full time which is amazing, I only started the hours last week, and I’m absolutely exhausted, but looking forward to almost double my part time pay at the end of the month!

    I feel like things are slowly coming together at the moment. Back at the end of last year things were pretty dark for me. I felt really poorly a lot of the time, I drank way too much and I just lived to pay the bills. Since then as you may already know we have moved. Things didn’t change too much after that, I felt a little like things were the same but in a different location.

    Then, about a month ago I’d just had enough of feeling sorry for myself. I’ve barely touched a drop of drink (apart from a few Saturday nights when I want to relax) and I decided to set myself something to work towards.

    Here are a few things I’ve planned to do/already started:

    1. I don’t currently drive so I’m aiming to be driving by the end of the year (I realise how ambitious this is!).

    2. We have a cellar, and recently our favourite wine bar (which happened to have an amazing pool table) closed, so we’ve decided to convert our cellar into a home bar. We’ve kind-of started already. We’ve managed to clear out all of the crap that was in there (I will be doing a progress post in the future so I will post photos there) and all that is left in there now is some of Mr Pie’s family’s belongings, which will hopefully be cleared soon.

    3. Continue with improving my health. Without even trying I’ve managed to lose 8.5lb since the end of March. Which doesn’t sound like much, but the only thing I have changed it that I’ve been walking Dinky to school and then to work around the corner rather than taking the bus on the school run. I can tell the difference already, and the walking wasn’t with the intention of losing weight, it was due to anxiety preventing me from wanting to travel by bus. So I’d like to continue improving my health.

    4. Keep fighting the anxiety. I recently went to the Doctors regarding my anxiety. I was having night terrors, waking up shaking, sweaty, paralysed, the lot. I get anxiety every day but normally battle through it with hyperventilation and lots of chewing gum. After a long chat with the Doctor I decided to give medication a try, a low dose of beta blocker has made me feel 1000000% better. I think just knowing that I’ve got the medication there is making me feel at ease. In 2 weeks I’ve only had to use it 3 times which I don’t think is bad at all!

    5. Blog more. Even only halfway down this first post back after months of not writing anything I feel good. Definitely need to blog more.

    So five things that I really don’t think is unachieveable, infact I’ve already started 3 of them, and I finally feel like there’s something to work towards or look forward to. I’ve had the above picture saved in my phone for months, and everytime I’ve felt a bit down looking at it has helped, even if I did nothing straight away, I do feel like I am always trying to better myself, which is never a bad thing!

    Has anyone else been in a similar situation? What did you do to pull yourself out of the dark place?

    Much love xx