Lately I have been struggling with my health, and for once it’s not my mental health. It seems like one thing after another lately. As soon as my mental health started to improve, my physical health seemed to decline and that’s why it’s time for me to make a change once and for all. I’m fed up of always having something to complain about, and I’m also fed up of looking in the mirror and hating what I see. My overall health needs to improve, and soon. I have become lazy with a lot of things, including simple tasks like going to the shops, keeping our home tidy and wanting to walk to and from the school to keep fit. I know that’s not who I usually am so I need to get myself into gear and find some new habits to form.
What’s the plan?
First and foremost, my plan is to find a way of changing my eating habits without feeling like I’m on some sort of diet. The one thing that seems to throw me off is the feeling that I can’t have a certain food because I tend to rebel against myself and eat it anyway.
I think the key here is to not make anything off limits, but to try and have only small amounts of the ‘naughty’ food, just enough to satisfy any cravings. For example, if I fancy some chips with my dinner, rather than not allowing myself to have any, I’ll substitute a large amount of what I’d normally have for a salad or vegetables. Doing that alone should improve my eating habits dramatically; therefore improving my health. This way I have a chance of losing weight without banning all of my favourite foods.
Admittedly, the school run is much easier when Mr Pie can take me and Dinky there because he then takes me home to work and heads off to work himself, so walking the route to school each day seems a little redundant. On his days off however, I plan on leaving him to relax in bed and taking Dinky to school myself to make sure that we are both getting a few days a week of exercise.
When I haven’t got Dinky, I’m going to start taking myself off on walks in my free time not just for my body, but for my mind too. I spend countless amounts of hours each day in front of a computer, so taking myself away for a short time each day will help me clear my head. Plus, where we live is so beautiful too so I could also get some pictures for my Insta!
Lately, home life has been pretty crap, simply because of the amount of work that Myself and Mr Pie have taken on lately. Our plan is to move and buy our own home soon, so working to generate the money has been essential in our minds. We do however, enjoy drink in the evenings which means that things like housework are sometimes neglected. I am going to make time each day to keep up and maintain our home so that when we do come to relax, we don’t have to feel bad about neglecting our home.
Even though in the last year I’ve come on leaps and bounds with my mental health, I still find myself stressing massively over small things which turns into me feeling awful about myself, or snapping at my loved ones.
I’ve been reading about meditation and I’m going to give it a go so that each evening, I can simply listen to some relaxing music and let my stresses go.
Even though I’ve said this on my blog a thousand times, I’m going to give this new me a good go. I can’t continue hating myself forever because it’s going to end up driving people away that care about me and it’s also not going to help my anxieties in the long run.
Has anyone else felt like this before? How did you get through it? I’d love to know.